Death holds no escape Chap.1

I still remember those tears shining on your beautiful face. A face that reminded me so much of her, yet so little at the same time.

I hated it when I made you cry…I always wonder why you cried. For me? It’s such a useless thing. I'm not worth your tears Kagome, never was…not worth them staining your beautiful face. Don’t cry for me…don’t cry because of me…I love her, I'm sorry.

I say this in my mind but in my heart I just want to hold you. Protect you from everyone…even, no especially me. To feel your warm body pressed against mine. To know that you feel safe. To block out everyone but you. To see your pretty face shine with happiness. If only I could of given that to you. But I couldn’t, I can’t...and now I can’t see your face, or feel your warm body

I loved her and made a promise…now I'm here and I think of you as the flames lick away at my earthly flesh. I'm holding her instead of you, just like I was holding you instead of her. Breaking hearts even in death. Deaths not even my getaway.

Forever ill be here thinking of you, of those tears that shined on your face when I said goodbye, when I broke you, and I wish I could say all these things to you now. To say I'm sorry would give me the eternal peace I gave up to be with her…and to say I love you would only make what I’m going through now worth it all.